This is my first published post in about two months. I was last seen in the hospital being treated for an infection that halted my digestion, and after I was released I rested for one day and started back on my grind the day after.
Since then I’ve been on two travel jobs and, on December 20, I received my MFA degree. I celebrated through the holidays with family and friends. I was on the verge of moving from my one-bedroom bachelor pad where I’ve collected memories both good and bad, to a two-bedroom duplex where me and my boys have room to flex. The move has been postponed, due to the fact that the current resident discovered a foul smell coming from the walls of the bathroom. It wasn’t sewage related, but the owner had to knock out all the walls to see what the problem was. Now it will be a month or two before I make that move.
Yesterday was my birthday and I consider it the last day of the holiday season for me. The most interesting thing about turning 48 this year is the mathematics. My older son Brian will be one-fourth my age, and my younger son Evan will be one-sixteenth my age. It was one of those random calculations that came to mind when as I was laying in bed thinking about where I’ve been and where I’m going. My sons are huge reminders of both.
I don’t make resolutions. I usually just claim the whole year as the year of change. Of course I go through changes every year, but for the past few I claimed that THIS WILL BE THE YEAR THAT CHANGES EVERYTHING!!! I didn’t make that claim this year, maybe because the past few didn’t have that capital letter causing effect on me like I thought they would; change did occur, just not on that level. In the grand scheme though, everything changes everyday.
I’ll just stick with what I’ve been working on with myself, because everything good seems to happen when I practice this, and that is killing my ego. When I’m humbled I’m less stressed. When I think about others before myself I feel alright because I’m in a position to be able to help others. I have those days where I think, why can’t everyone be this way, but it just leads to self-pity and causes sadness in my soul. I’ll continue to stomp on my ego in 2016 and see what a happy soul can produce…hopefully more blog posts! Happy New Year to you all…